I was born June 9th of 77
Third of 3 boys
Eleven years after the second
The first one, Frank
Saw the light in 61
December 1st
The day my family ceased being strong
Cause my father should have never had a child
He didn't know what to do with it
Except make my mama cry
He always was jealous of his oldest one
Ever since the beginning
Love just could never come
Not accepting pride as confidence
He chose to hurt him bad
Going against his accomplishments
Calling him faggot
Cause he was dressing nice
To attract women
What daddy could have never tried
He married my mom while in a deep depression
Even right after she had just lost her 2 parents
While she was weak and vulnerable
She even got beat up by a man
Who pretended being a Beatle
Don't want to think about it but I have to
I'm even scared to say
I'm terrified just thinking about the news
I'm so scared of that day (x2)
Three decades after my parents divorced
My mother still lives in the past
Having all kinds of remorse
Unable to forget though under strong medication
There’s not much she can do by herself
So I'm there compensating
From cleaning to grocery shopping
But I never really feel any type of satisfaction
Of being able to afford for my mom is my wish
All the luxuries in the world she’s never gotten
Take her on a trip to Miami
See palm trees, blue sea
And just feel the heat
Having a drink at the beach
Shouldn't be that big of a dream
For the woman that for me is the queen
One of the few that loves me no matter what
Smiling with her eyes just to see me show up
I'm scared of that day when I see her disappear
Without having chased any of her worst nightmares
Don't want to think about it but I have to
I'm even scared to say
I'm terrified just thinking about the news
I'm so scared of that day (x2)
credits
from The Kid Was Already Insane (2017),
track released March 16, 2013
Produced by DJ Nerve
Written and performed by P
Chorus performed by Martin Bilodeau
Recorded by Opac
Mixed and mastered by Matriq
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