No one ever understood the man
And I’m afraid nothing never really happened
It might have been a dream
I had to go see by myself what they say about heaven
Cause it seemed like nobody really cared for me
Whatever decision I made
I was criticized for it
But the thing that topped it off is when I lost the kid
I spent years being cheated on
Lied to so often I had no idea what I depended on
I had found true love in a child that needed help
When I became a dad learning how to step
Everything then felt so sweet and so perfect
I was finally rightfully respected
Teaching a son everything he needs to know to start in life
Made me forget about all the problems around alright
A wife saying things that didn’t make sense at all
Wasn’t hurting as much as a few weeks before
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
Perhaps I should have trusted people just a whole lot less
To protect myself form being so much depressed
Life got real dark when the lady got out the hospital
No papers were signed, she had the right to take him home
I tried my best to get the 2 to stay with me
But a man had already entered the story
Being around them all the time felt like it saved me
Deep inside I was drifting away from reality
I went fishing everyday that season
Thinking about what could possibly be the solution
Totally wasted one night I offered what I had saved my whole life
A place to stay on a private lake
Please stay one more night
But I was declined my only chance to stay in the picture
That’s when I knew I was gonna need a mixture
Leave everyone alone and the weight of my presence
Became a vague memory in the distance
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
credits
from The Kid Was Already Insane (2017),
track released September 8, 2017
Produced, mixed and mastered by Frankofun
Written and performed by P
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