1. |
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I wish everybody loved me
But since it’s all for self
Help nobody but me
I’m sick of so much shit
I’m not your family
Don’t call me bro if you can’t stand me
Liars asking for truth now got it
Get expensive shit and feel retarded
There’s so much hate on my heart
Snakes in the grass everywhere
Oh my God
Don’t wanna see my face
My pace at work makes you feel unsafe
But I’m the boss
Fuck outta here man
I can’t stand waiting
You don’t like me
Stop pretending
I won’t change for nobody
Put too much effort on my dream to stop it
I’m done paying attention
I now take what’s mine
Fuck the world
I’m on a mission
My patience has run out
Spent years pushing for nothing
Gimme me my ounce
of recognition
My barrel of cash is somewhere for me
I’ll keep on searching
I’m broke cause of the shit I chose
Now it’s only time for me to get my dose
Shoulda kept my suitcase close
This place is so not for me
I just don’t know
My love for my daughter is unconditional
Need to move mountains just for us both
Can’t wait cause others don’t wanna do shit
Obviously no one is ready to help me get
Nothing
So I’ll be my own boss
Now don’t give me shit if I don’t give a fuck
I was there now I’m not
Do whatever you want
You lost me
Whatever you do won’t make a difference
It’s what you say that keeps people believing
No wonder why everything’s fucked up
You get treated like shit but they say they love ya
But you know what? I’m just not like that
Actions make you who you are
So if you got my back
You better act right
Cause if you don’t do jack but run your yap
You know damn well I might just snap
But isn’t it how real bosses really do?
Tell you to pack your shit is nothing new
You fucking yellow you
Never there for nobody
Using everybody to make it through
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2. |
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I was born June 9th of 77
Third of 3 boys
Eleven years after the second
The first one, Frank
Saw the light in 61
December 1st
The day my family ceased being strong
Cause my father should have never had a child
He didn't know what to do with it
Except make my mama cry
He always was jealous of his oldest one
Ever since the beginning
Love just could never come
Not accepting pride as confidence
He chose to hurt him bad
Going against his accomplishments
Calling him faggot
Cause he was dressing nice
To attract women
What daddy could have never tried
He married my mom while in a deep depression
Even right after she had just lost her 2 parents
While she was weak and vulnerable
She even got beat up by a man
Who pretended being a Beatle
Don't want to think about it but I have to
I'm even scared to say
I'm terrified just thinking about the news
I'm so scared of that day (x2)
Three decades after my parents divorced
My mother still lives in the past
Having all kinds of remorse
Unable to forget though under strong medication
There’s not much she can do by herself
So I'm there compensating
From cleaning to grocery shopping
But I never really feel any type of satisfaction
Of being able to afford for my mom is my wish
All the luxuries in the world she’s never gotten
Take her on a trip to Miami
See palm trees, blue sea
And just feel the heat
Having a drink at the beach
Shouldn't be that big of a dream
For the woman that for me is the queen
One of the few that loves me no matter what
Smiling with her eyes just to see me show up
I'm scared of that day when I see her disappear
Without having chased any of her worst nightmares
Don't want to think about it but I have to
I'm even scared to say
I'm terrified just thinking about the news
I'm so scared of that day (x2)
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3. |
Visiting Love
03:32
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I was a young kid when mom got first sick
Of an outsider I got the visit
That gave me so much courage
I forgot what he was in for
To me he was my real father
Treated me like his own blood
Never took advantage of a young buck
Could write tens of pages to enumerate
What he did for a family to ressuscitate
A state of dignity that was blown away
With comedy
Today laughters still make my day
Never got to live with my dad
But I think this man saved my life
I remember him working at this drugstore
As a handyman where we lived just next door
Each and every week after his last shift
He'd bring back Hot Wheels for me to play with
To me he was Visiting Love (X6)
I didn't get the chance to be around him very long
Cause when my mom got out the hospital
She asked to get me so
I went back with her
We kept visiting him
Cause he loved being around us
So he kept coming for a while
Where was his wife?
Things seemed to be complicated on his side
He asked my mom how things were for her
If she was willing to move on with him forever
She then politely declined adding
She loved him very much but was scared of ruining
A great relationship
I don't know why she said it
But most importantly
She didn't know that she would regret it
He came back saying 'Buy my cottage for one cent'
But then again mom said it didn't make sense
I guess he took it as a rejection
Cause the next time we heard of him
He was inexistent
He had killed himself
Suicide my friend
They found him dead
Laying on the floor of his kitchen
What would my life be if the end was different
I'd be visiting love for my adoptive parent
For him I'd be Visiting Love (repeated until the end)
Miss you man
Now rest in peace
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4. |
I Had To Go
03:12
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No one ever understood the man
And I’m afraid nothing never really happened
It might have been a dream
I had to go see by myself what they say about heaven
Cause it seemed like nobody really cared for me
Whatever decision I made
I was criticized for it
But the thing that topped it off is when I lost the kid
I spent years being cheated on
Lied to so often I had no idea what I depended on
I had found true love in a child that needed help
When I became a dad learning how to step
Everything then felt so sweet and so perfect
I was finally rightfully respected
Teaching a son everything he needs to know to start in life
Made me forget about all the problems around alright
A wife saying things that didn’t make sense at all
Wasn’t hurting as much as a few weeks before
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
Perhaps I should have trusted people just a whole lot less
To protect myself form being so much depressed
Life got real dark when the lady got out the hospital
No papers were signed, she had the right to take him home
I tried my best to get the 2 to stay with me
But a man had already entered the story
Being around them all the time felt like it saved me
Deep inside I was drifting away from reality
I went fishing everyday that season
Thinking about what could possibly be the solution
Totally wasted one night I offered what I had saved my whole life
A place to stay on a private lake
Please stay one more night
But I was declined my only chance to stay in the picture
That’s when I knew I was gonna need a mixture
Leave everyone alone and the weight of my presence
Became a vague memory in the distance
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
I had to go. I had to go
I had to go
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5. |
Say Something
03:25
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Two people who helped save my life killed themselves
Leaving questions floating that will never be answered
Why did you have to decide for all the others?
I'm one of them that today still suffers
I don't know if I understand or if I'm frustrated
One thing for sure now it's all over
No more sharing history in the future
Everything is part of the past
No one will get to know ya
Like I knew you
What a shame
An odour I can't stand
Now It's always time to fold up
When we should be reminding ourselves
About the so good days of old
When everything was so cool
Say something when you're suicidal
You destroy so much when you decide to go through
The pain remains long after you're gone
Breaking all the hearts you touched all along
Say something when you're suicidal
You destroy so much when you decide to go through
The pain remains long after you're gone
Breaking all the hearts you touched all along
It looks like depression does its job
Taking away loved ones like a fraud
Everything you gained gets lost real fast
The safety you felt at some point gets smashed
You wanting to free people all around
Happens to be a brick wall and the sound is horrible
I thought you were unbreakable
Your laughters in my memory are despicable
Unexplainable reaction from your part
I hope you’re better now where you are
Cause here it’s nothing like before your start
Life is always cold october to march
Say something when you're suicidal
You destroy so much when you decide to go through
The pain remains long after you're gone
Breaking all the hearts you touched all along
Say something when you're suicidal
You destroy so much when you decide to go through
The pain remains long after you're gone
Breaking all the hearts you touched all along
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6. |
Safe & Sound
04:08
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When I was little I wanted to become an architect
Always wanted to build
Everything around was a wreck
My brother’s clique on coke
Selling stolen gears and dope
Quote unquote
Those who terrorized the coast
One night his friend asked me if he could borrow
My baseball bat
I was a young dude so just like that
I wanted to play ball with them
They all laughed and left
Honestly I didn’t quite get it
Till the next morning when I read the paper
And it said someone got beat down with a slugger
Shit in one sec it all made sense
I was sitting at a table with a bunch of gangsters
I remember saying to myself
There’s no way I wanna one day look like any one of them
I was starting in life and had the worst examples
Needed to find a place in my head to set the tempo
Started making music to flee a life I didn’t want
Never paid off but I never ended in the joint
The scenario that was set for me
Materialized into being totally free
Safe & Sound
Those fuckers never stopped fucking around
One day we were a jeans warehouse
Can you count?
The next day we were fucking Videotron
If you needed cable
They’d hook you up
You know the song
Strippers with stage names
I recall one called Melody
That fucked my brother but wasn’t so sweet
All they did was get trashed all time
Bottles of Jack Daniels and
So much hash in aluminum foil
Bricks of them
With golden stamps
Bums and tramps
Shit was so dumb
No curtains in the windows
And knives burning pounds of drugs right in the middle of the table
I saw so much shit in the 80’s
But I wasn’t even impressed cause it all seemed normal to me
My room had posters of Samantha Fox totally naked
Though I wasn’t old enough to fuck
Started making music to flee a life I didn’t want
Never paid off but I never ended in the joint
The scenario that was set for me
Materialized into being totally free
Safe & Sound
I was introduced to heavy metal at a young age
Wanted to get in my room
But got kicked in the face
With a steel toe boot
You can’t get in here
My brother could get so rude
When he was totally wasted
Led Zep playing so loud in the back
And don’t start crying
Can you hear the words on the track?
You can hear the devil when you play the vinyl backwards
I remember thinking their shit sounded so awkward
The first BMX I got was robbed
And was patiently waiting for me in the bathtub
The morning of my birthday
It felt like an earthquake
Who in hell gives that kind of gifts anyway
I got a million stories like that I just can’t make up
To get out of that shit hole became my Stanley Cup
I was sent to different places when my mom got sick
And I found peace of mind discovering new music
Started making music to flee a life I didn’t want
Never paid off but I never ended in the joint
The scenario that was set for me
Materialized into being totally free
Safe & Sound
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7. |
Hell
03:54
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Have you ever lived not wanting to go home
So desperate you found peace only by being alone
Can’t explain what you go through
And can’t stand the phone
Dreaming of changing everything
Get lost getting stoned
Or always drunk
Stuck with a hysterical bitch
Over reacting to every situation again
She’s pitching
Pots, plates and utensils
You ain’t rich but you should be allowed to do what you want and just go
But you can’t cause you’re fucked
Huge debts out of luck
Huge tits time to nut
Every reason you want
There’s no way you can move
Do your time in the joint
Pretty much like the news
Every one disappoints
Toxic relationship
Off beat
No you can’t get
Any worse than that
You got caught by the cunt
Never tell yourself she’s young and she will grow up
If she’s crazy at one point
Take your legs and just run
If you stay when it’s hot you’ll live in HELL
If you live by the cunt you’ll be living HELL
Staying cause you don’t wanna hurt HELL
Get the fuck out to avoid HELL
If you stay when it’s hot you’ll live in HELL
If you live by the cunt you’ll be living HELL
Staying cause you don’t wanna hurt HELL
Get the fuck out to avoid HELL
Take the knife in the dishwasher never the drawer
If you don’t you’ll get to know how much she really meant to bother
Dirty socks in the laundry and never on the floor
Even though the bathroom counter is full of her powder
What the fuck you think you’re doing here
Bring the money fuck your beer
That ugly belly needs to melt down on that treadmill my dear
Not hockey again you’re always watching them
No music for you tonight I invited over some of my friends
Set up the table now and say hello to Christina
Can you go to grocery store something’s really missing now
You so don’t wanna spark the thing
That’s gonna make her go wild again
You simply shut the fuck up and pretty much by accident
You can’t stand her face but act like nothing’s really happening
You know it will all soon end but just have no clue when
Members of her family tell you nothing really makes sense
It’s gonna explode for a minute but it’s time for you to change
If you stay when it’s hot you’ll live in HELL
If you live by the cunt you’ll be living HELL
Staying cause you don’t wanna hurt HELL
Get the fuck out to avoid HELL
If you stay when it’s hot you’ll live in HELL
If you live by the cunt you’ll be living HELL
Staying cause you don’t wanna hurt HELL
Get the fuck out to avoid HELL
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8. |
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You gotta live life like there’s no tomorrow
Let’s enjoy life my baby
I’m still reminiscing about that summer in 95
Those crazy years
That was the good time, good time
It's summer 95 and I'm single
Me and my boys are upper town and we're wrinkled
We're about to flex to Pete's home, a car full
The others will follow by bus number 54
Before we pull up I tell the boys as a joke
Find some fine ass girls on the low
Then we roll we smoke blunts getting haut
Heading north to the hometown where the port's beau
I don't know what's going down but I'm starvin'
Stop at the corner store to get somethin'
A couple date squares' what I'm fuckin' with
Let's get to our man's house real quick
As we arrive I choose to sit upstairs
I need to eat right now, otherwise I'm dead
Unwrap my treat
Take a bite I'm hit
Where the lightning strikes
Shit that's it
She enters the house with her pearly smile
Brown hair, brown eyes I think I'm gonna die
I can't finish my thing
I'm done with the munchies
I gotta get this girl's phone number before she leaves
I follow her downstairs
And I can smell the scent of her fruity perfume
Now my senses dance
Plus her style is classy
The perfect beauty
I fly in the sky but yo I gotta speak
I'm a handsome dude but so are my boys
Gotta make my way in with my nice deep voice
I make her laugh while we share a joint
Can't show I'm too high if I don't wanna lose too many points
Time for her and her sweet girlfriend to go
The other one's the bomb too but I can't go for both
At the door when they're about to leave
I find myself frozen even hard for me to breathe
That's when I let my dream girl disappear
In the darkness of the night
I know I'm such a queer
That's when she turns around and screams my name
Comes back running, puts a piece a paper in my hand
You gotta live life like there’s no tomorrow
Let’s enjoy life my baby
I’m still reminiscing about that summer in 95
Those crazy years
That was the good time, good time
The summer of a crazy year
Music comin’ out is so sick
Cherry on top is Only Built for Cuban Linx
So many classics bumping in everybody’s whips
36 Chambers, The Infamous,
Me Against The World, Dah Shining
Do you want more?
Cocktails, Lifestyle of the poor and dangerous
It feels like we’re part of a movement
So it’s only right for us to be cruisin’
We spend hours driving around town
Poundin’ our sound systems with the best to be found
Everybody feels down in the city
Frowns everywhere we feel the need to be creative
We just lost our beloved hockey team
and Salt Lake City totally killed our olympic dream
All we do is play bball, get drunk and empty balls
So many hot chicks get the booty call
It’s poverty’s paradise
We Naughty by Nature
A huge appetite for beautiful creatures
I’m so in love I can’t feel nothing
All I think about is make love to my new girlfriend
We spend evenings at the movie theatre
Apollo 13, Die Hard with vengeance
Her lips are so soft
She keeps me on the edge of my seat
I need to know where’s the end of my dream
The skirts she wears are just too much
Plus the shoes she uses to match em are always so sharp
I can’t wait for the time we brush our teeth
Cause it means I get closer to drop my jeans
I’m losin’ my mind and I can’t see straight
I wish I could cause it could really hurt me babe
I don’t know I’m mixing love now with attraction
My judgment is clouded cause I’m way too blinded
I should know better cause I already been there
When I was 15 , need to take intensive care
I so wanna be in love I’m in love with love
But I’ll soon find out what’s its really real cost
You gotta live life like there’s no tomorrow
Let’s enjoy life my baby
I’m still reminiscing about that summer in 95
Those crazy years
That was the good time, good time
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9. |
NYC
03:38
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Nothing makes me feel
like going to New York City
When on vacation
Dream of crossing the Tappan Zee
Rolling southbound on the BQE
Looking at the crazy Manhattan skyline from the East
I love the feel of being about
to spend some time on the greatest island
Can't never wait for a meal
that of course is gonna be italian
Mulberry Street
Taste the best pizzas
Spaghetti sauces
Everything you need boss
You're in NYC
The best of all cities
NYC
The city of big dreams
A walk on the Brooklyn Bridge
To admire the East River
So hot you'd need a fridge
But it can't get any cooler
Take the time to stroll slowly
to witness the architecture
Everything is a scenery
Everybody's taking pictures
Wall Street, Battery Park and then Tribeca
High line is waiting for me
In the Meat packing District
Always have an eye on
the Empire State and Chrysler buildings
Even though next to me is the Hudson River
Take a bite in Hell's Kitchen
Chill at Bryant Park
Ladies in need of friction
Please don't make me start
The city of Peter Venkman
Everywhere is art
Even if you stayed a thousand years
You’d still be missing parts
You're in NYC
The best of all cities
NYC
The city of big dreams
Columbus Circle is on Central Park West
Reminds me of Corona Park and A Tribe Called Quest
Heading north towards the famous Dakota Building
Where John Lennon was shot
Make a right in Strawberry Fields
Cross the Bow Bridge
Enjoy the sight around the lake
The Belvedere Castle is only one mile away
Get to the extraordinary Museum of Natural History
If it's rainy it's probably the best you'll ever get to see
But never miss the chance to go to the Yankee Stadium
Where the best franchise in the world plays baseball every summer
Spend some time around it
Especially before game time
Kids play in parking lots
If you don't do it's a crime
You're in NYC
The best of all cities
NYC
The city of big dreams
Of course there's no way you can do all you want in one stay
There's so much to do like just walking down Broadway
The beach of Coney Island
Scent of BBQs in Harlem
Not to mention the Madison Square Garden
Rangers, Knicks, Devils, Yankees, Mets
Giants, Jets, Islanders, Nets
Times Square at night where the lights are so bright
You might think it's day time
And get lost and all these heights
Staten Island Ferry for the Statue of Liberty
The best view of Lower Manhattan
Believe me
Flatiron, Chinatown, Washington Square
In a famous yellow cab or one metro fare
You're in NYC
The best of all cities
NYC
The city of big dreams
You're in NYC
The best of all cities
NYC
The city of big dreams
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10. |
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I lost my mind, my love my life
A simple argument changed a lifetime
One minute before I made my decision
Everything seemed sublime
The perfect situation
A dream so intense I could feel sentiments
I thought never existed til I felt 'em
I planned my escape while she was showering
While I was watching the 2004 World Hockey Championship
Canada's yellow jersey looked horrible
I wasn't following the game
Thinking 'bout making my way out untraceable
Called a cab right after she left for work
Then picked up all my clothes in the closet from the hangers
Packed my suitcase fast then took 300 dollars in her wallet
Hidden in a cushion in case something bad happened
I lost my mind, my love my life
All I had in mind was leave before it was too late
I had things to take care of back home
Let's say they weren't too safe
I remember the ride talking to the taxi driver
Thinking I shoulda went back up and forget what I was doing
Cause we lived on the 10th floor of a building in Virginia
And downstairs I hesitated before closing the door
But when it locked up on me I had no choice but to move on with my plan
Though I was already having regrets
I got scared of what was coming
She was gonna graduate from GW
But the future didn't look so great
We were gonna move to her parents in Philadelphia
I was going bankrupt and had no legal papers on myself
I thought I was gonna leave for a while and fix things up
And later come back with my green card from the north
I still wonder why I didn't say a word back then
About what the fuck was really going on in my head
I lost my mind, my love my life
I guess it was too much for me to handle at the moment
I chose to make the mistake of totally remaining silent
All I remember is seeing the Washington Monument
Thinking I might never ever be able to see it again
That's when what I was doing really hit me
Cause then I can only recall being in New York City
The level of stress inside of me was insane
I thought I was just never gonna make it back with my whole brain
I lost my mind, my love my life
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11. |
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12. |
Tolerate
03:29
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Produced by Dave McGennis
Written and performed by P
Recorded by Opac
Mixed and mastered by Matriq
I guess we all can say life is hard enough like this
We don't need to be hurt for nothing
Rethink
I think we only need to be heard
My ink is indelible
My dreams are terrible nightmares
I'm capable of a few great things
Like listening and giving hope
Wrestling with my thoughts and
Swing with a sing what's so negative
Right there outside the ring
I'm trying to move on and the best I can
Motivation just ain't always there my friend
Forgive myself for the people I offended
And help is not easy for me to demand
It makes me feel like I'm losing it
I may be wrong but that's how I'm feeling it
I'm digging deep in my head for solutions
By myself I'll make it
Cause failure is something I can't tolerate
How much can one take?
Now disintegrate stress, go away
You just cannot wait
That’s the only way
You can’t tolerate
That energy ain’t that good for your brain
Release all your hate
Make peace with your main source of that great force
Lift that weight off
Your fate is to make right there
Through that gate
Where there is only love
Regrets can eat you inside out
You have to forget and give up the bouts you can't win
You didn't kill anybody but still
You're there laying down hoping she ain't getting ill
You will go through this challenge
You don't have a choice, understand
Life goes on and you can't stir the same shit over and over
Now get over it
Take care of yourself and finally live the new life
Enjoy your love and the growth of your child
Get healthy and live your passions
Get crazy but only for the good reasons
See positivity everywhere around you
Now will help you go through basically anything
Focus on that
Be the king of your mind
And bring spring on your side to your sight
You have the right to let bright lights in your eyes
Don't criticize yourself so much
No one is perfect
Don't make it so rough
Plus it's useless
Who cares if you're making mistakes
Who doesn't?
So give yourself that break
You're a great person with clever intentions
Don't tolerate shit
Stand up and walk ahead straight
How much can one take?
Now disintegrate stress, go away
You just cannot wait
That’s the only way
You can’t tolerate
That energy ain’t that good for your brain
Release all your hate
Make peace with your main source of that great force
Lift that weight off
Your fate is to make right there
Through that gate
Where there is only love
Release all your hate (x10 fading out)
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13. |
Zach & Olivia
03:26
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For a long while I thought it was over
And I was gonna live by myself forever
Say goodbye to my hometown and never come back
Spend the rest of life exploring a new track
I had failed for so long
I needed to whack the old me
That lacked so much energy
I was dreaming of Brazil and its never ending beaches
Summertime that last a whole year
Welcoming wet kisses
When I walked by the most extraordinary person
I knew for a while that smiled at me through her vision
I must’ve felt some sort of connection
Cause I trashed all of my plans
And opened the door to a new beginning
You’re entering the zone of Zach & Olivia
In the spring of 2012 my girl became pregnant
We gave the foetus a name and told our mothers
Zach was gonna be here just the next winter
The ever free kid was gonna become a father figure
But life is always full of surprises
As you can guess
My son chose a different dimension to get some rest
We fled the sorrow on a quick vacation
And did what we had to do to correct the situation
You’re entering the zone of Zach & Olivia
April 6 2013 is the day everything slowed down
And made our lives make sense
Showing the direction to an intense feeling of adoration
Olivia Brooklyn Daigle was born to the happiest parents
Her elegance brought us to tears
We could finally comprehend the word fears
A dense relief, satisfaction
The key to an ever ending growth
Unconditional love made its way to our small circle
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